Monday, August 25, 2008
The Day My Heart Got Attacked
By now, those of you who personally know me or have been reading my blog. would know that I was on long MC. (Yippeeee!!! Really! Timing is just great coz I got to spend day in day out with lil Ryan!)
Back to the point. My last MC was to end on Friday 22 August 2008. And I have been taking my medications regularly. (Ok I missed one, bt ONE only okay!) Oh ya! To update, apart from all my normal medications, my dearest Lungs needed Steretide, Antibiotics and Steroids. Yup, you saw it right, STEROIDS! I'm back to taking Steroids! F********. But for the bettter health and a long life, steroids it shall be. Lemme see, I gain 30kg the last time I took Steroids back in 2000 and if I calculate right.... WTF!!!!!!!!!! Bt... apa-apalah utk better health. And oh ya, I am soooo banned from any sort of exercise for now. Hahahahahahha! Tgklah tahap kedegilan aku pas raya nanti k.
So like any normal Saturday, I was suppose to have tuition for 2 of my kids. One of them postponed very last min and so I decided to eat my brunch - Daddy bought this sambal-less nasi lemak (Makcik lupa letak sambal! So i ate only half of it) Before I ate the nasi lemak, I already took my medi at ard 10am. After eating at ard 1115am I had this rapid palpitations. The kind that says my heart is beating at 180/min. Yup! That fast! I was breaking into cold sweats and kept thinking what is happening to me. I started to feel faint and felt damn weak. Nadia came ard 1140am and I asked her - she being a nurse and since my mum was out marketing. Nadia didn't know what was happening either and I asked is it due to my steroids dosage and she said "I dunno Kak Ikin....."
Mum came back around almost noon and I told her and she checked my pulse and this time it went down to almost 100/min and I said that's fast! She said it is and asked me "Are you having heart attack?" I said no! Ard 12.20 my student came and I continued with my tuition. Mak Long and Tiot came over a while later and after tuition, ard 3pm I quickly carried Ryan coz I was so missing him badly. Since I left arm was aching (sengal-sengal) I held him in my right. Soon after Mak Long, Tiot and Oman left and is replaced by my sister's colleagues and friends. By this time, I was already rubbing my left arm coz I could feel the aching intensify. My mum saw me and asked what's wrong and I told her. She said "You are having symtons of heart attack!" I already knew that of coz, bt decided to be in denial. "Come, Ibu bawak g A&E"
Me, being the degil me, said, "Hah......? Tak payahlah......" And she being the SSN, "Jgn suka main-main ley tak, pegi check je" Coz I told her maybe it's not a heart attack and what if the doctors don't believe me and think that I am just playing a fool ( I always have this thinking that I am not sick enough to visit the doctor and that if I do, the docs will just get super irritated with me and think in their head that I just want MC. Talk about paranoia!)
After much persuasion, I said ok and went to get ready. We only left at almost 4pm as Mum was feeding Ryan - that bugger do not wanna wait for his milk. Mum checked my pulse again in the cab ride and it went down to around 80/min - which was good.
When we reached and registered and waited, I thought, great! If I had heart attack, I would have died waiting! And I guess that thought automatically pushed my normally absoulutely perfect BP (this has been testified by all my doctors and even my Mum who always say "You have a perfect BP and sugar rate!) to almost the high range - no wonder I cn get heart attacks, panas baran tak hilang-hilang.
Met the doctor and she asked all sorts of questions that made me even more giddy and followed up by the ECG. I have never done an ECG before so it kinda terrified me a bit. There was all sort of wires attached to me and so I had to ask the nurse an inevitable question.
Me: Is it going to be painful?
Nurse: No. It's painless.
Me: Ok Good! How long will this take?
Nurse: About a min. Or less. Ok don't move, we are starting now.
And guess what it took a whole of 10 second only lah! Buat suspense jer! So went to the doc again and the doc said, take MMT then go chest x-ray. Nurse gave me this MMT and said "Doc prescribed quite a lot for you - 60ml so you have to finish up 2 cups k" I went "Okay......" and gulped the 2 cups down fast to minimize the taste. Went to the x-ray session then waited for the results then went back to the doc who said " ECG normal, lungs have nothing grossly abnormal (and my mum said what is that suppose to mean?) n she said well... normal lah. so it should not be a heart attack."
Phew! I really didn't wanna get hospitalised. Not again! So I was happy enough to hear that it could be a heartburn instead which generally always feels like a heart attack coz have the same symptoms and it might just be related to my URTI and due to my medications. Doc said my meds are pretty strong and no, I do not need to lower my dosage. She gave me a referral letter to my GP for my next review, which I promised myself to go this time - something which I always promise myself to do and never do it simply because..er dah sihat buat per g tgk doctor kan... buang duit jer! And doc Choong is always complaining about how my entire family refuses to go for any review! Hhahahahah! I think I'll surprise him. Anyway, I have to take his meds for 9mths, so might as well.
In a lighter note, I am missing Ryan Iskandar now. I keep lullabying myself his song. You know the song that his Ibu created for him. The one song that he loves to hear and will shut up. That is besides the "You are my Sunshine" song. That kid is in love with his name I'm telling you. Shuts up the moment he hears his name is being called. Oh God! I wish I can take no-pay leave for you Ryan. Never mind, I'll cuddle you tonight k!
About the photos, I will soon upload it. Soon!
Posted by DiStUrBeD AnGeL at 1:27 PM